Anyway

It's both wonderful and painful when God takes away the crutches and comforts you lean upon--things you may not even realize you use for crutches--and forces you to rely on Him completely.  Not always in big things either, but even just everyday life.  When He takes your plans and your priorities and sweeps them aside and replaces them with His plans and priorities.  When the realization of the nothingness we are without God hits you, but then having God reveal how radiantly beautiful you are in Him leaves you breathless.  It hurts, but it's so wonderful to realize how much better everything He has for us is.  It's good, because He is good!  He truly does give us life, but not just life, life MORE ABUNDANT!  As it was said in the first Narnia movie, "Is He safe?  No, but He is good."

"Anyway" by Martina McBride

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream
That seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy
It's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great
But sometimes life ain't good
And when I pray
It doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yea - I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing
A song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yea, sing it anyway
Yeah, yeah!

I sing
I dream
I love anyway

Rain, Rain PLEASE GO AWAY!!

Generally, I like rain.  I even generally like T-storms.  I like playing in puddles, especially muddy ones, after it rains.  However, I do not like tornado warnings and I do not like my parents basement flooding.  And I do not like the weather radio in my parents house constantly going off.  It's lovely to be informed, it's annoying to be kept awake, especially when the warning doesn't involve our area (I'm now extremely thankful for the nap I took earlier).  I do like kissing in the rain.  However, as insane as the rain and wind is outside right now, I think I might make an exception.  Not that I have anyone to kiss right now anyway, but in theory, if prince charming should magically materialize, I would prefer kissing inside at the present moment.

So I am tired and bored.  I'm going to go snuggle with the dog.  She hates storms.  She needs a hug.  G'night!!  Hopefully ya'll get more sleep than I'm going too.

Currently Listening Monty Python's Spamalot (2005 Original Broadway Cast) By Eric Idle, John Du Prez, Tim Curry, David Hyde Pierce, Hank Azaria see related

Whatever happened to my part?

Yes, I'm listening to the soundtrack to Spamalot...again...hee hee!

So, I'm currently digging the book of Ruth (that's from the Bible, just fyi).  It hit me the other day that God blessed Ruth with a great man when Ruth wasn't even looking for one...she was busy being obedient in other areas.  I find that very interesting, cool, applicable, and all that jazz.

So, I think I will try to quit moping so much.  (And my apologies to everyone who has had to deal with my mopiness.  Feel free to smack me outta it when necessary.)  I've got plenty to keep me busy. 

Much love ya'll!

The Lemonade I'm Driking is Made with 3% Lemon Juice

I'm not sure why I'm watching that movie...I really don't need any help with that...I could have written the movie.

One of my favorite chick flicks would definately have to be "Runaway Bride" with Julia Roberts and Richard Gere.  I'm not sure why, but I just happen to love it.  I also happen to identify with Julia Roberts character.  I recently learned (in a way harder than I would have preferred, but maybe it was good for me) that I excessively mirror men that I'm dating/extremely interested in.  I'm not talking about just showing interest in or learning about what he does, but actually chaning or hiding aspects of my personality to be more like I think he would want me to be.  The reasons for this are a bit too personal for me to post on here.  I decided this was okay to post as it's something that I'm allowing God to work be through, so I might as well be honest about it.

I'll just have to keep trusting that if God causes me to lose something, He has something better to give me.  I'll get there...

So I was totally inspired by my talented, beautiful friend singing this in seminar this semester.  So here are the lyrics.  (I love you!!)

I'll never have the power to control the land
Or conquer half the world 
Or claim the sun
I'll never be the kind who simply waves her hand
And has a million people do
The things I wish I'd done

But in the eyes of heaven
My place is assured
I carry with me heaven's grand design
Glory, Oh,
Glory I will sing the name of the Lord
And He will make me shine

And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And I will give the world my eyes
So they can see
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And the future of the world inside of me

In the eyes of heaven
My place is assured
I carry with me heaven's grand design
Glory, Oh,
Glory I will sing the name of the Lord
And He will make me shine

And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And I will give the world my eyes
So they can see
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And the future of the world inside of me

And I will be like Mother Mary
With the power in my veins
To believe in all the things
I've yet to be
And I will be like Mother Mary
And I'll suffer any pains
For the future of the world
For the future of the world
Inside of me

-Christmas Lullaby, from "Songs for a New World"

Okay, I seriously need to focus on my paper, which is going very poorly write now.  In other news, my roommate is a silly monkey!

Currently Watching Moonraker By Roger Moore, Georges Beller, Irka Bochenko, Emily Bolton, Jean-Pierre Castaldi see related

I should marry my computer, we spend so much quality time together.

So I should be working, but instead, I was looking on msn (I need to change my homepage to something more interesting.  Seriously.) and I came across these wonderful links about love and lost love.  So I thought I'd share them.

This is a kinda encouraging study.  Of course, it's only one study and it's been done on a very small and specific population, so it would need to be replicated and done on a larger and more diverse population (the external validity is questionable...okay, I will quit sounding like a researcher now).  Luckily, I'm in that population, so it can apply to me.  But anywho, it's a nice start and, like I said, it's kinda encouraging.  http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/24418670&GT1=43001

And this is just a nifty list. http://msn.chemistry.com/msnarticles/25-love-factoids?trackingid=508259&bannerid=2002322&GT1=26000

Okay, enough randomness from me.  Back to work.